The middle of the night can be one of the most lonely times in the day, when you really need someone to talk to there's no-one, when you really just want to scream you cant for fear of waking somebody up. And yet its the same silence that allows you to hear things that you wouldn't otherwise be able to hear. The sounds of the night as people call it, the sounds of animals and nature and far off cars that alll reminds you your here on earth and for a moment time has stopped for you. These are the nice comforting sounds in a silence which would other wise remind you how alone and how venerable you really are. And then there's the sounds that other people make, the low whispers or even clear crisp words on a still backdrop, sometimes the night seems so serene you forget that others can hear you, you forget your manners, you forget how to back stab in a way that save yourself, your own face. Its sad that that's what it comes to but maybe dirty deeds don't seem so bad in the dark. But then I think, am I glad I heard it? Would I have been better off if I hadn't? Will it make me stronger? Will it make me weaker? Will I succumb to your expectations which clearly show the expectations you have of yourslef, will i? i hope not. I thought you were somebody different, i thought your ambition and your strive was a good thing, i thought that some people were good, wanted good themselves but it turns out i was wrong. Lie to me, pretend to me, convince me of your truth, then allow someone else to love me to care and genuinely wanto to do good but in for your own cause, for the good of yourself and not for theirs or anyone elses. Maybe your mistake told me what i needed to know. Will the lessons ive learnt in the past few months, ones id always knew of but never allowed myself to accept materialise even in fate?


who knows?
we can only wait and see.




~Tag replies~

♥ Anna - okayokay :\ i just forgot alright? x.x i'll do it ):< just that im lazy heeh

" You're a heart breaker. "



Thanks L for accompany-ing me the whole afternoon, along with my whims x3. lovelove very much kay? >3<

Went home after school today. Recently started my treatment, super tiring lahhhs ~.~ Every wednesday must report there ): . is like, EVERYYYY wednesday. Please do note of my lazy behaviour, hehe :\.

Tmrw taking back report book. Kinda scary ><. Dunno how to face mama when i get it back siaaaa ~ x.x.


Ok la, i updated already k? i'm not that lazy afterall HAHAHAA

Feeling just a lil not so over you ;


Moodless these few days. Wtf. For an idiot. is it even worth it? (: Didnt think so.

Spent Sunday with Augustine, drawing eyes. LOL. Like, 2 hours plus? and we didnt get a satisfied eye .____. wtfwtf. the biggest fail of my life. -faints- Then went to jumbo for dinner with family, uncle shanping&wife, uncle xindao&wife, Augustine&Family. Then me&Augustine started talking about his 2nd and 3rd story line. Finish your 1st story first la ! LOL. 3rd story seems appealing to me. 2nd story is too much of undeads. too L4D. Still cant get over smoker ._. Although the idea of gunslinger is worth looking forward to. LOLOLOL! im so biased X: Then i ate chillicrab, until stomach want burst sia O: Then aft that went home and audi-ed awhile.






For those who know,
I've already broken.
Don't ask anymore,
It tears my wounds apart.
(:

Haven't been updating blog for what seems to be like donkey years (actually it's just a few days but w/e P:). Happy rotting folks! jk x:

Apparantly this holiday isn't turning out to be something i expected (more or less like it). What's a holiday when you gotta have tuition every alternate day? 这是什么假期啊, 他妈的. :\
Going for blood test tml. Kinda scared. Keep pinching myself all the time LOL. Just to get used to the pain.

Thanks Andrea, now i know, strong people are never without wounds (: I'll remember that.

Damn tired. I wonder if it's the insulin that's doing this, but heck. Really kinda just bored nowadays. Just want to sit down and rot in a corner.

Cheer up yo Venus.
Even if he's gone, you still have us. ^.~
Feel free to drop by/text/call us anytime you wish.
JY, C and I just want the best for you. We'll support you & your decisions. You're grown up now. It's time to make your own choices. You can do it, because we believe in you (:

What's a friend for.
Happy, then ask you come?
Not happy, ask you fuck off?
Nice, because you can start sucking my balls.

I will not tolerate being treated like an IDIOT in your eyes and a puppy and nothing else.

What you wanted i always let you have you way.
Your excuses.
Your lies.

I wasn't born yesterday.
You lie to me like how you breathe.
You lie like a professional.

But a liar just cant fool another liar (:

Don't tell me shit like "I can't stand the noise and the spams, i think it's annoying."
Like i can?
I'm not your superwoman, I'm no different from you. Except i don't lie to my friends.
You're downright a bitch and nothing worse than that. Something not even worth of my attentions.
Don't give me that bitchy attitude and shoot me off with "I have bad mood today, ok. I just fought with my couple."
Like i don't fight with mine?
Like me and him have shiny and sunny days all day long?
WOW.
You are awesome.
You know that? (:
You and I are different. Because you can stab your truest of true friends, you can beat her up and betray her, over and over again in the years that past, helping someone whom you shouldnt have helped just because you want a little bit more fame and attention. And when it's all gone you obediently crawl back to my side, asking for my forgiveness.
You are such a dog, you know that?
You're worse off than a dog. You're downright TRASH.
Give you face when i fight with your gan baby?
Who was the idiot who started this big hoohaa in the first place. If we thought back to the root cause,

WASN'T IT THIS BITCH CALLED LEEJIAQI, WHICH IS YOU? (:

Plus,
Do you even have face? I thought you already sold your face and your soul for fame and popularity.
Spreading my secrets and rumours about me?
You think i don't know it was you?
You say you hate stalkers.
You stalk me yourself.
So how can you hate yourself?
Since you're so egoistic.

Don't deny it either. You said so forth yourself.
"I don't need your company anymore. Get lost."

And who was the idiot who crawled back when all was lost?
Oh wait.
Wasn't it you? (:


Stop lying to yourself.
You can't get any further than this, bitch.

HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII

I GOT ONLY ONE THING TO UPDATE,
THAT IS



IP camp sucks -____-
LOL

Fell down twice at Discovery center.
LOL
Eh, btw,
The intro to THE MAID
is so cool ok ):
date for 1 thousand five hundred years
then have sex.
LOL
LOL
LOL
i bet candy would freak out at this.
EY
it's either i pajiao ,
or MEL update wrong.
LOL
kkk my bad ):








And i never ban anyone on my tagboard lea :\
Karma issit


TIO BO ! WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.




kk cheers :\

(4:22 AM) ` C`laribeL ♥ {{:
anws
im really
really
REAALLYY
tired

(4:23 AM) -21LimiT-:
go

(4:23 AM) ` C`laribeL ♥ {{:
so can i go sleep?
(:

(4:23 AM) -21LimiT-:
slp

(4:23 AM) ` C`laribeL ♥ {{:
so
i can?
:3

(4:23 AM) -21LimiT-:
no you cant

(4:23 AM) ` C`laribeL ♥ {{:
oh .
okie .
-sits down-

(4:23 AM) -21LimiT-:
LOL

(4:23 AM) ` C`laribeL ♥ {{:
-stares at com screen-
so entertain me
-___________-

(4:23 AM) -21LimiT-:
-21LimiT- sent a sound: FuckYouuu~~

(4:23 AM) ` C`laribeL ♥ {{:
OI

(4:23 AM) -21LimiT-:
LOL
i entertained you
D:

(4:24 AM) ` C`laribeL ♥ {{:
NO
D;<

(4:24 AM) -21LimiT-:
-21LimiT- sent a sound: BabyVOX

(4:24 AM) ` C`laribeL ♥ {{:
THIS IS BAD QUALITY ENTERTAINMENT
I HATE IT !
EH

(4:24 AM) ` C`laribeL ♥ {{:
I THINK
there is one channel coming up
o0o0o0o

(4:24 AM) -21LimiT-:
f1
lol
i tink

(4:24 AM) ` C`laribeL ♥ {{:
f1 kena kop liao

(4:24 AM) -21LimiT-:
my feel

(4:24 AM) ` C`laribeL ♥ {{:
still f1.

(4:24 AM) -21LimiT-:
o
izzit
LOL

(4:24 AM) ` C`laribeL ♥ {{:
feel semo feel.
u also nv check
f1 5 hr plus lei.

(4:24 AM) -21LimiT-:
dunnid check one la

(4:25 AM) ` C`laribeL ♥ {{:
you go in see la
):

(4:25 AM) -21LimiT-:
lazy
LOL

(4:25 AM) ` C`laribeL ♥ {{:
you go log in his acc.
-emo corner-
kkkk i go see sua.
SUAAA
mee sua
O;

(4:25 AM) -21LimiT-:
LOL
D:
no
you sit down here

(4:25 AM) ` C`laribeL ♥ {{:
mee sua not nice one.

(4:25 AM) -21LimiT-:
LOL

(4:25 AM) ` C`laribeL ♥ {{:
then u go lor
else who go

(4:25 AM) -21LimiT-:
dont go
all sit here
LOL

(4:25 AM) ` C`laribeL ♥ {{:
...
idiot !

(4:25 AM) -21LimiT-:
no one leaves !
-shout-
LOL

(4:25 AM) ` C`laribeL ♥ {{:
laogao !
omgggg.
got one qian nian lao yao here
fook u

(4:26 AM) -21LimiT-:
t.t
sua
i go slp le
hais
hai
hais
hais

(4:26 AM) ` C`laribeL ♥ {{:
LOL
idiot.

(4:56 AM) -21LimiT-:
you now
den know ?
-.-
hais
fb sot le

(4:56 AM) ` C`laribeL ♥ {{:
):
k la

(4:56 AM) -21LimiT-:
i suspend you from fb
for 3 mths

(4:56 AM) ` C`laribeL ♥ {{:
i'm stupid k
T.T

(4:56 AM) -21LimiT-:
(:

(4:56 AM) ` C`laribeL ♥ {{:
eks
):

(4:56 AM) -21LimiT-:
fb and dont talk to me
(:

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):
))): ...

(4:57 AM) -21LimiT-:
(:
(4:57 AM) ` C`laribeL ♥ {{:
):
Fine .
deal .
can we tag fp? X:

(4:57 AM) -21LimiT-:
no

(4:57 AM) ` C`laribeL ♥ {{:
...

(4:57 AM) ` C`laribeL ♥ {{:
no deal

(4:57 AM) -21LimiT-:
-.-
this
isnt
about deal or not
you deal or not
i also will angry

(4:58 AM) ` C`laribeL ♥ {{:
): ...
-emo corner-

(4:58 AM) -21LimiT-:
(:

(4:58 AM) ` C`laribeL ♥ {{:
T.T

(4:58 AM) -21LimiT-:
step emo fail

(4:58 AM) ` C`laribeL ♥ {{:
bu yao zhe yang laaaaa ..
):

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sa jiao fail

(4:58 AM) ` C`laribeL ♥ {{:
wei
):
T__________T

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crying fail

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wtf @ you.

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emo fail

(4:59 AM) ` C`laribeL ♥ {{:
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step sad fail

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(4:59 AM) -21LimiT-:
spamming fail

(4:59 AM) ` C`laribeL ♥ {{:
);
nasiwawujibaban~
o;

(4:59 AM) ` C`laribeL ♥ {{:
baby !!!
pei me leaaaaaaa ):

(5:00 AM) -21LimiT-:
nooo
LOL