The middle of the night can be one of the most lonely times in the day, when you really need someone to talk to there's no-one, when you really just want to scream you cant for fear of waking somebody up. And yet its the same silence that allows you to hear things that you wouldn't otherwise be able to hear. The sounds of the night as people call it, the sounds of animals and nature and far off cars that alll reminds you your here on earth and for a moment time has stopped for you. These are the nice comforting sounds in a silence which would other wise remind you how alone and how venerable you really are. And then there's the sounds that other people make, the low whispers or even clear crisp words on a still backdrop, sometimes the night seems so serene you forget that others can hear you, you forget your manners, you forget how to back stab in a way that save yourself, your own face. Its sad that that's what it comes to but maybe dirty deeds don't seem so bad in the dark. But then I think, am I glad I heard it? Would I have been better off if I hadn't? Will it make me stronger? Will it make me weaker? Will I succumb to your expectations which clearly show the expectations you have of yourslef, will i? i hope not. I thought you were somebody different, i thought your ambition and your strive was a good thing, i thought that some people were good, wanted good themselves but it turns out i was wrong. Lie to me, pretend to me, convince me of your truth, then allow someone else to love me to care and genuinely wanto to do good but in for your own cause, for the good of yourself and not for theirs or anyone elses. Maybe your mistake told me what i needed to know. Will the lessons ive learnt in the past few months, ones id always knew of but never allowed myself to accept materialise even in fate?


who knows?
we can only wait and see.




~Tag replies~

♥ Anna - okayokay :\ i just forgot alright? x.x i'll do it ):< just that im lazy heeh

" You're a heart breaker. "



Thanks L for accompany-ing me the whole afternoon, along with my whims x3. lovelove very much kay? >3<

Went home after school today. Recently started my treatment, super tiring lahhhs ~.~ Every wednesday must report there ): . is like, EVERYYYY wednesday. Please do note of my lazy behaviour, hehe :\.

Tmrw taking back report book. Kinda scary ><. Dunno how to face mama when i get it back siaaaa ~ x.x.


Ok la, i updated already k? i'm not that lazy afterall HAHAHAA